to restraint myself from letting all out on twitter or fb so yeah i did that. since the day i entered sem 5, nothing have been easy on me actually. one comes after another. i admit it that it is my fault when the first 'incident' happened. i do really regret it and i am trying to change. but as im trying there's something occurred.
im quite surprised when i knew the reality. i have no courage left to speak. my current decision is that i'll just shut my mouth. yes. i dont care anymore. they can just say that the ego level of mine is high or what so ever. but i've tried my hardest till im tired. i've talked about this with my mom and my sisters. my mom asked me to confront her and talked about it. but because of im not ready to do it so i just keep quiet till i cool myself down.
but as i've cooled myself down, different situation appeared. i didnt asked anyone to come and back me up. i just tell them the truth and i let them to hear from another party and its up to them to think the best. my sisters gave me so many advice on how to handle this since she'd been in a worst situation. i acknowledge that she's stronger than i am. but im not.
ohh yeah. lps aku start conversation tu, im even more surprised with the replies that i get. there's no conclusion in this post. we choose how its going to be. my head is so messed up right now. so please everyone dont ask or talk about this with me. just let me live my life for a moment "without" any worries.