30.12.12

how 2012 treat me

well hello again. assalamualaikum. and yeah. as usual if i dont have any holiday, my blog wont be update by me till i meet them. and here we are. i got one week of holiday which is mid sem. it has been only one month since my sem 4 started and i feel like im having my study week now. yeahh. thats what i feel.

and just in a blink of an eye, it is almost the end of 2012. 2 more days. 2 more days. 2012. what can i say? there's so many things happened this year. i've been through too many things. heartbreaks, troubles, sickness, being lied to, fake friends, i slipped, i fall, i cry... you mention it. i've been in all situation except death. and thank to Allah i still have my love ones beside me.

as for my studies, Alhamdulillah im doing quite well. still can maintain my current situation. friends? some of them are showing their true colors. day by day i get to know who is my real friend and who is not. some are getting better and vice versa. its kinda "special" for me this year because i've been hurt by two guys. well, not enough by that, my friends are turning back on me.

life? im enjoying my life since i have to move on even though everything sucks. im in a situation where i need to smile even if my eyes like bursting out of tears. im in a situation where i need to keep everything by myself because some people didnt care about your sad life. im in a situation where i have to pretend that i didnt care even if i really really really do care about that tiny little thing. you just need to be happy to pleased others.

2012. sure a tough year for me. i didnt realize that it is a long journey till i met the end. even 2012 have been harsh for me, there's still plenty of sweet and memorable memories that i wont forget. i wont forget any of it. and if i can turn back the time, i'll go back to all the happy moments that i have. where nobody can say that im sad. and not even a single drop of tears fall down from my face. where i see everyone happy enjoying their life. everyone smiling. and where my smile was the real thing ever.

but its time to wake up. wake up from dreaming and face the reality. in 2 more days i wont be in my teen years anymore. i have to face all the problems that getting worst even by thinking of it makes me sick. what can i hope for 2013? nothing. i just need a fresh new start. happy new year in advance people.


between lies and truth, i can't differentiate them well now.

assalamualaikum
FISYA

14.12.12

primary school memories

hey there fella! hey there delilah  what's it like in new york city  i'm a thousand miles away  but girl, tonight bla bla bla..... ♫ haaa tudia. ttba ja kan nyanyi lagu hey there delilah. :3 tidak lah ku tahu mengapa saja tiba2 lagu itu muncul. AHH! SUDAH! assalamualaikum semua. (〃^∇^)οΎ‰

post pasai sekolah ni sbnarnya dah lama ada dlm draft. tapi sbb panjang sgt story dia, aku tak jadi post. yg ni pn aku nk cita pasai sekolah rendah ja. sek mngh mmg sah2 la nala mia panjang kan. heheh. paham?


sek rndh aku SK Batu Lanchang. igt lgi lagu sek. "berusaha untuk mencapai adalah cogan kata kami dengan tekad dan semangat padu....." HAHA. tak sgka igt lgi rupanya. aku tak rpat ngn rmai org. aku ni pendiam dulu. rmai yg sek kat sni anak org kaya. and mmg aku kwn ngn ank org kaya. apa yg dia ada, kita rsa nak jgak. xbgus kn environment cani? mmg tak ahh derr. emm emm. anak dato' pn ada kat sni.

seriusly, aku tak igt sgt kejadian kat sek tu. tpi aku igt somethg la. aku active time sek rndh. msuk bola jring. olahraga. gua pena dpat 2nd place bhaii. T_T itu pn gua nk bgga sikit. dulu pndidikan islam salu dpt A. bla sek men, hammmmmpehhhhhhhhhhhhh! english aku dulu tobat hampeh. tu yg skg aku try upgrade. alhamdulillah. bole la stakat nk smbg satu dua patah. upsr? 2a 3b ja. (Y)


ni dah lawa. dulu tak cani pn.

kat sek rndh ni aku ada 3 bestfriend. yg sorg tu mak aku jaga. so mmg aku rapat ngn dia. mmg rapat ahh ngn dia. siap pena berangan, nnt kawen aku jdi pengapit dia bagai. SEMBANG zaman kanak2. biasa ahh derr. tapi bnd tu suma berlalu cpt ja. aku xcntct ngn dia dah. bkn pa. dia hilang centu ja. aku jmpa dia (kat laman sosial) pn rasa segan aihh nk tegoq. bdk pandai. malaih aku.

xpa. hilang dia, ramai lagi mmbe aku dk ada. mmg kkdg rasa rindu gak ahh nk lepak ngn dia. mak dia salu blnja mkn mcd sblm kami pi sek sma2 (sesi petang). salu gak aku tido umah dia. mmg aku byk spent time ngn dia. past is past. dia hanya kenalan lama yg tidak lagi ku kenal kini. :)

the only picture that i found by accident. :) 2 MELUR -2001-

memory stays as a memory. SKBL. :)

assalamualaikum
-FISYA-

4.12.12

wonderland chuolls

hohohohohohohoho! assalamualaikum. :B *tunjuk gigigigigigigigi* k. dah bole start kot? nak cita la pasal aku & roomates pegi wonderland that day. that day? heheh. its last 2 weeks kot. hri jumaat msa mggu first msuk sem 4. haa la. haa la. dah lama. taw la. bnd dah lma jdi. :( tapiiiii... hri tu aku mls nk update psal ni sbb aku taw entri ni akan jadi PANJANG! *dgn tgn sekali*

dah bole start betul2 kot? kihkihkih. kami pi wonderland ni pn sbb ada kupon. 3 tix knak2. 2 tix dewasa. free mkn mnum. half price pelampung double. disebabkan kami ni beli dri mmbe. so, dpt kupon tu "harga membe2" la jgak. special kes.

kami gerak kul 11. smpai dlm 11.05. cewah! heheh. xtaw lah smpai kul bpa. ahh. bkn nya jauh mna pn si wonderland tuh. -,- smpai2 terus gi siap2 & cari tmpt sewa pelampung. dpt pelampung, TUNGGU APA LAGIIIIII?!!! terjun ahh dlm kolam yg konon nya dlm tuh. -_______- xda pn kolam2 neh. suma paras lutut jewwww~


mula2 basahkan diri kat "adventure" island dulu. main segala gelongsor yg ada kat situ. wani turun blkg aku, aku turun mcm slow sikit. dia trun laju gila. dia tendang aku. -,- sakit woi. sakit. k. maka, lepas "adventure" island, kami pegi crazy slide. rexy ride. naik lagi pegi wave rider. pegi plak tornado. lastly pegi pendulum.



pendulum ni serius ahh. scary gila k. scaaaaaaaarrrrrrryyyyyyyyy ssgt. dia curam nk mati. phewwww~ klau dk dpn tu, mmg nmpk kn kecuraman dia tu. urgh. gugur jntg. bila dia tolak kita jtuh tu, rasa cm nk bergolek ja. tpi tak pn. heheh.



lepas naik semua, kami pegi la cafe. nk mkn. tggl la pelampung tu tak jaoh. tpi tak la dekat jgak. msa tga mkn, ttba sedar yg 1 pelampung LESAP! -_- mula lah operasi cari pelampung. 2 JAM k. hurr. nsib baik time tu tgh hri terpacak. mmg cadang nk rest pn time tu. hurr. bkn sng ouw nk cri. tgk nmbr semua pelampung yg ada. semua org jdi target kami. cambongoks. -..-

masa operasi mencari & menyelamat tu, aku & malin amik kesempatan pegi main kamikaze race. hihiks. ini sgt seronokkkkkk!


dah tu, pegi la main2 + cari2 pelampung kat "adventure" island. aku ngn malin gerak naik ats, mula2 cadang nk g turun gelongsor tu. skli tgk ada pelampung terabai. hmmmm. teka lah. teka! teka! mmg pelampung aku woi! bersyukur gila time tu. bole main dgn aman dah!

kami pn naik lah lagi skli tornado & pendulum tu suma. suma bnd naik 2 kali. then ada pegi big wave jgak. sng cita mmg naik suma la. tapi ada la dlm 1 2 gelongsor xnaik sbb mcm tak adventure lgsg.
~(-.-)~ conclusion for that day, bole lah. enjoy jgak. dgn wani burnkan tgn dia. seronok lah jgak kn. :D jemput lah pegi. heheh.








and thats the end of our wonderland moments. see ya next post! byebye. ♥

assalamualaikum
FISYA

2.12.12

i miss.....

its 3 in the morning. i should be sleeping right now. but yeah. its weekend. by the time i watched some dramas. memories pass by... with 'kiss the rain' song is on track non-stop right now. what i wanna say in this entry is just one important thing. i miss them.

i dont know why. but my tears cant be stop anymore while looking at our pictures hanging out together last 2 semesters. we were so happy. but everything simply changed. i dont think that it will be the same after 'that incident'.

i dont know what 'they' think. or what 'they' felt about it. but i really do feel something missing this time around. and that's why im crying. crying so bad. i just miss them a lot. i want to have that happy talks with them again. being happy with everybody. i dont ever wanna run away from anybody.

i miss them.......

sincerely,
FISYA
*cries