its emo-ish time

i dont know what have got into me. demm. imissyou. i just cant deny it anymore. yes im smiling. going through my life without you is so hard. can i just pretend that you are with me now? NO. yeah. i know. but whatever it is, good to know that you still care about me. eventho im not sure if you are honest or just pretend to be. i know that i have to move on. i have made my promise. "i will love him until he become someone husband." what a stupid promise or false hope to be precise. dah taw lagi nk saketkan hati snri. seriously. at first, it gets really hard for me to forgive him after what i have been trough. what i have sacrifice. my tears. people might say "he's not worth fighting for" yeah. you are not in my shoe. please do step into my shoe and have the feeling that i have. you'll know my dilemma. but then. i learn to forgive him. yeah. its hurt seeing him with other girl. i know she is wayyyyy prettier than me. but that's not the point. maybe she know how to treat him better than i do. even if he is not with that girl, im still happy seeing him happy. i just miss him. i miss his fragrance. i miss the way he looked at me. i miss having him text me every night and days. i miss his voice. i miss hearing his laugh. i miss his smile. but what i miss the most is. i miss when he says "i miss you". i know it is impossible for me to get him back. i just can wish the best for him. now and forever. :')

#np if this was a movie by taylor swift. be strong fisya. be strong. *sorry for the long post*



study week


whoa whoa. chill. who say the holiday has started? HAHA. in your dream! study week just started. demm you! next week is FINALLLLL!!! well. since final is around the corner.

did you think that my desk is like this?

or i stay late at night until it became like this?

OR. my whole week will be haunted by books?

HELL NO LAH! HAHA. this is what actually happen to me. and guess what? its happening now?

the diff is just i didnt use that apple thingy and thats obviously not me.

ehem. ehem. eceh. btuk plak. hurm. when am i going to change? ARGH! ok ok. im on my way. lets stdy! :) and to those that will have their final this month. all the best to all of yah! sem II is almost OVER! muihihi.